Breast cancer charity show

Saturday night My dance studio is hosting a breast cancer Charity show.
" Pink Ballroom "
Venue: One world hotel . :)

Which means we will be performing varies of dance at there,
to raise the fund and enjoy all the performaces .
I will be performing tml night and having rehearsals all day long.

Gonna grab a pink dress tml at 1u ,
cause i dont have one :(
This is because the theme of the charity is Pink !
So yea !
XD

Gonna be fun tml night :)

I dont know what i want these few days. Didnt chat with them for some days and message them. How are you Guys doing? Alyna?Maykye?Lee xin? I misses you guys a lot . Like seriously damn miss three of you . Holiday is coming soon . We gonna find one day out & hang out with each other okay !

My exams results are sux . Failed for physics and chemistry paper 1.
C for Maths,Just pass my sejarah paper 1 .
How about my paper 2. I'm so worry my paper 2 and 3. :(

My blog title said i get what i want,but is not true at all. I didnt get what i want . Everything starting to change. I just feel my shoulder muscle is so hard . I think i'm too stress or thinking of something which cant be solved. I didnt get a good sleep for 2 weeks & i didnt release my tension and stress. After final's, i dont feel enjoy at all. I didnt hang out for so long. I didnt go for shopping for some time. Friends are enjoying themselves after finals. Shopping, Karaoke, Movie marathon , etc etc... But i dont feel like going out. Just feel staying at home , facing infront of my laptop and staring on it. I'm too tired of everything that happen since january till now. Can I just forget everything and leave it?

Had a hard training today,
Release out my stress,
Kinda feeling good.

Baw of my feet is Effing pain,
When i walk,
i can feel the pain pressing against the floor,
i don't know how to dance for my exam tml

How should i express my feeling out to you?

I

Dont

Know

What

To

Do .

I Love You .

I'm effing emo and moody this few days

Oh Gosh !

Final's are officially over,

& Its to time for relaxing myself !

Ignoring all those shyt,

& trying to be Happy

& Not being Emo !

也許

也許我應該要懂得放下一切，
也許我應該要面對現實，

也許我們應該就到此為止，
也許我們應該把一切忘掉，

也許你可以固執的不面對現實，
可是上帝就得把這份感情停止，

也許時間已經鎖定好了，
到了某段時刻就得放下。

也許我應付不來，
可是現實就是現實。

朋友提醒了我，
這幾天里想了好多，好多。

我不會在找你了，
越跟你聊天，
心裡就越放不下一切
越覺得很愚蠢，固執，
不敢面對一切，過去。

回憶是甜蜜，
現實是殘酷。

以前不懂得珍惜，
是大錯，
現在才懂得珍惜，
一切太遲了.

有時候，
都會想到過去，
有甜蜜的，也有痛苦

有時候，
感覺真的好孤單，
每晚望著月亮，
眼淚不停的灑落在我臉，
真的不知道自己是不是愚蠢，

我有好多好多話想跟你說，
可是說不出口，
怕說了出來，
會放不下，帶來麻煩給對方



我。。。。
應該怎樣做才好呢？



放下？
還是？
堅持到底？


我真的好模糊

Am i your's?

I felt so left out when you dumped me alone at the side,

& caring the others.

Only my dad know how to talk to me,

but not you .

I talked to you but you did not response for anything

& didnt even answer me .

Mayb i having final's now,

so you dont like me watching tv .

I don't know.

I feel like crying when i having dinner with you all.

I just quietly drinking my soup and did not say anything .

except when my dad was asking me about college school

& holidays..

One day i will be leaving from here,

& off to England or Mayb London?

I have no idea.

I feel time passes so fast.

& my dad was thinking to let me study in Nilai.

study A level and off to somewhere.

I'm so scare leaving my dad alone,

& leaving me alone in an unknown place

new area, new friends, new life style & staying Alone.

This is the worst part.

Mayb i'm not grown up yet or having a mature thinking,

cause i know one day,

i will be alone and leaving from Malaysia.

I do not want to think ,

& appreciate what i have right now.



I recalled back that you didnt came to watch for my dance competitions

& you guys was sleeping.

I feel so .......

& i dont think you really care about

my hardwork in dancing,

& results .

Next monday i'm haivng dance exams,

Mayb you're not interested with it

But i just feel so jealous,

when you talk to him but not me,

& care about him.

Am i a part of the family?

This questions keeps stuck in my head.

Tears are dropping inside my heart,
Not dropping out from my eyes.
Cause i knew it,
& im also a human too,
especially ur daughter.

I feel so left out ~

By Rebecca Khoo.

Just had a phone called with Alyna ! Thx dear for calling me and supporting me. I feel much more comfortable after talking with you this sor po and laugh all the way through. One thing i couldn't deny was how much i love you and this feeling is unfaded until now. After several months, the feeling is still deeply in my heart. I just read my oldest post in my blog about my birthday. I will not forget what u did to me, baking a cake for me and saying Happy Birthday Dear . Although the cake is full of cream but i still love it very much & thx for everything u gave to me.

GoodBye,
I love You,
By, Rebecca Khoo .
Xoxo

My brain start functioning the wrong side again.Wrong info , wrong way of thinking and i shouldn't think it right now. Like seriously ! Why I can't start a new relationship? Am i scared or afraid of hurting again?Or mayb that guy is not my prince yet? Or I feel tired of everthing ? Or mayb i still love him ? Am i insane or what? i knw you guys will feel annoyed of me cause i always keep writing about him and how much i miss him and love him . but i still wanna express out my feeling. this is really what blog for. i dont want anything happen to someone or something whenever i post something about him or other unrelavant stuff. i just hate ppl scolding me or hate me for writing unusual stuff in my post or they will say you want get ppl attention is it?caring about you and love you is it? lols. i can say im not. if you knw how it feels , you will know what am i talking about. i'm writing this is not getting ppl's attention, so please dont misunderstand about it. if you feel this post is annoying , please move ur ass off . sorry for being rude but i just hate ppl saying bad stuff about my post . but whoever is it, i dont give a damn about it. if you are in relationship with him, please dont because of this post and break up. cause i dont wan to get involve into any problem . im seriosy fedup with the previous case happened. Makes everyone unhappy and cried of tears and even lost a good friend. i dont wanna this thing happen again. please ! each every second i lied to myself, saying i wont love you anymore, i wont miss you again . but now , i'm wrong. Could time turn back to january 2nd?the first date we had ? i'm missing the moment we've been through. its so hard to forget . trying hard to forget and wash off , but i just cant. Am i being stubborn or i cant forget about him? the picture , the necklace, the teddy bear. all is still with me. keeping in a box .mayb i should wake up. i should face the fact. the truth is infront of me. i cant deny the fact that we are officially end.our relationship is officially over. what is my heart trying to tell me?no one will understand how i feel . when you had this kind of problem, then u will know how it feels . but now everything is over.totally over. what can i espect more? Chances? i dont think so. i ruin the previous chances before. Whenever i think about you, my tears will starting to drop. but why my tears is still dropping since after several months of break up. i should be enjoying my life or with a new target? i dont knw how to appreciate people infront of me, standing there waiting for me. i just know how to look backward instead of looking forward to the future. One word for me Dumb . can i still trust you what you had said to me?i'm afraid of everything. even one small relationship, i can't even stand for it. how could i survive for a long term relationship? The best way is staying at home, being alone. i wanna go home mami and papa `

I"m Trying Hard To Change !





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Feel Good After Cleaning Up my Room

XD

Prom Night

Cheras Prom or Damansara Prom??

Which One Should I go ?

XD

I afraid i will be on leave to outstation on that time

Eesh !

This is ur last year,

Wanna accompany u to go want !

Hope the date wont crash with my travel date lar =(





3 Pure Science subjects is officially over !
& I'M SO SO Happy . !
Laugh !

4 days of holiday starting from today until monday

Exam will be continue back on tuesday till thursday !
Eesh ~

It's gonna end Soon .

Outing Girls !


Crazy Like a Crazy Frog

Today Bio Paper was okay .
But i did quite a lot of mistake in my paper 2.

Sigh.
But i don't wanna care anymore.

Today at school was so busy studying for bio.
BookS BookkssSS

& i totally forgot that i haven eat my breakfast.

hahaha

Whole day at school didnt eat at all
Cause was so scare for Bio Paper.

& After My bio Paper.
My head started to headache and feel kinda dizzy.
Mayb I didnt eat Gua.

Add maths Paper and Math Paper is staring Tml

I think i'm gonna screw add math paper
& math paper too !

ARgh !

ALYNA I MISS YOU SO MUCH !.

I MISSED SMS-ING WITH YOU

XOXO.

Killer paper

Had the most difficult paper ever !
Urgh !
Physics Paper 1 and Paer 2 are KiLLer Paper man !

I memorised all those formula shyts.
but they gave us the formula in the first sheet of paper.

but all the question doesnt apply with the formula itself.
I just couldn't get any answer from the formula.

I think Im gonna Fail for my Phy !
Paper 1 tembak a lot of questions.

Paper 2 essays was okay .
Cause i studied the thing from my exercise book,
and it came up exactly the same.

but strutured question was hard !
1st paper already make me think for like
10 mins?

anyways luckily Paper 3 save my life up .
Cause Our Teacher say Pressure Law is coming up for experiment.
so All the Form 4's was keep studying the experiment.
cause we actually have 2 hrs to study in the class.

Tml will be my 2nd paper.
Biology !
I need to score for this Paper !
Cause this sub is one of my most easy scoring subject.
and the highest mark sub i had.
compared to the other two science sub !

1st Mid i failed chem and Phy
but i passed my Bio.
thankgod !

MiD year
Bio passed,=)
Chem passed,
Phy Didnt take the exam.XD

So finaly Exam ,
Aiming to score for Bio and Chem

Good Luck to myself & Friends who having exam yar

XOXO

She Turn's Sixteen

Happy Sweet Sixteen Women

Olivia !


Thx for inviting me okay !

It was An AWESOME PARTY !

The party was held at

Daily Grind, Bangsar Village

=)

` The ladies `

` The Gentleman `

Xoxo

Albert I Miss You ~

` This iS how SUPER HIGH are we ` XD

` & There We Go ` Party Night

` Crazy Us ` Singing Gotta Feeling

` Ladies Night `

` The Wonderful Night Ever `

` We Just Can't Stop Moving `

DJ ROCKS THE NIGHT

` The Beat Is Moving On Non-Stop `

` Barbie Doll ` =)

` Birthday Girl `

` Dreams Come True `

` Praying Hard `

~ & There's She Goes `

& Now She Turns 16

Love Ya !


End !

Mama Birthday

Happua Birthday Mama !!!!

Always Love You

&

Heart You

XoXoXo

Family Group Picture

Daddy Bought this Cake

Grandma
*She look So Young*
XOXO

Daddy Silly Face.
HAHA

Mandarin Oriental

I feel Relieved after talking with you on the phone,

I have no idea what am i doing.

But one thing i knw is,

the feeling is still there.

It remains constant

& unchanged

!

TimeTable

Just received timetable for exam !
Oh My Gawd !

The first week is like.
3 pure science straight
BIO,CHEM,PHY
in the first week.

then the other week,
its like not really important subject
Eesh ~

I think teacher is playing with us.
they knew we didnt study .
and thought we could study for like one more week again.
but they put all science sub in one week.
Oh oH Oh !!!!


Really have to put my mind,
and concentrate on studies !
just for 2 weeks .....
and I'M Free...



Will update the party post soon.
pic's haven uploaded yet.
=)


Stay Tuned.
XOXO

Tonight is gonna be a good night

A Surprise will be given to you tonight

muahahaha

Dont cry ar !!!

hahahhaa


Tonight is the day !

lalalalala

Wedding dinner,

Olivia Sweet Sixteen

Bday Party


Tonight is Gonna Be A Good Night

hahahahaha

Loves


stay tuned ~

DEDICATE TO ALYNA

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHA PO !!!

ALYNA YONG PUI SAN

HAHAHAHAHA

IM SO SO SORRY

I CANT GO FOR UR PARTY

BUT I WILL REPLACED BACK
AFTER MY EXAM OKAY

MUST COME OUT WITH ME YAR.

REMEMBER? PROMISED !


HAHAHHA

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN SWEETIE

XOXOXOXOXXOXOXOX


LOTS OF LOVE TO YOU

XD