有一位女孩子，
很渴望一點的愛在她媽媽身上。
就一點點的愛就好了。
為甚麼當她慢慢的成長，
媽媽就不能對她好一些呢？
為甚麼一定要對她那麼的兇
為甚麼一定要在她的背後做小動作呢？
為甚麼就不能稱讚她一點點呢？
她很吃醋她的身邊朋友
為甚麼她們可以跟媽媽聊得那麼好呢
為甚麼甚麼心事都可以一起分享
甚麼事情都可以跟對方說
可是我跟她們不一樣，
我們就是做不到~
有時候我感覺你很偏見
連旁觀者都覺得
你可以對他很好，
愛他，
我？
就真的不一樣了
所以每次會到家裡，
我都會所在房間里
不想出去客廳
因為我不想看到你跟他那麼的好
可是對我，跟我講的語氣很大分別
有時候回答我一兩句
或者不想回答
你感覺到我的心里是那麼的心痛嘛？
很想講出來，可是我不敢
開心？
我開心嘛？
在你們面前當然開心，
心裡很不開心
很多的話很想表達
可以請你不要在我的背後做小動作了嘛？
如果你不爽我，
就在我的面前說，
不要打小報告
因為我不稀罕
我可以有那麼的一天得到你的一點點的愛嘛？
我活在這個家庭里，
感覺很辛苦
你真的不了解我
感覺上你不想去關心我
就會找我的缺點
我很不開心！！！！！！！！
媽媽，
你可以對我好一點嘛？
我的心很脆弱。。。。
我已經不懂得怎樣去表達我的心情
Friday, August 27, 2010
感覺上你一點都不了解我的為人
你只看表面，不真真的關心我到底在想些甚麼
表面上的我看起來一點都不在乎，可是我一點都很在意
你只會在他的後面投訴我，
為甚麼就不能當面跟我講呢？
為甚麼你每次都要在我的背後做小動作
你不覺得很無聊的嘛？
表面上你對我好想很好，沒意見，
可是當我不在的時候，你就會慢慢的說我的壞話
沒有一次是好聽的，沒有一句是稱讚我的話
每一次都是很難聽的話
而且還要在我的背後說！
當我知道，我的心真的很痛
為甚麼要這樣？
難道根本好聽的話都沒有嘛？
難道好好聊天都沒有嘛？
有時候感覺上，真的沒有話題可以聊
因為我不知道要怎樣開口，
每一次我要跟你說話，我都好矛盾
都有害怕的感覺
怕我說錯話，我真的很害怕
看到你對他那麼的好，
我很吃醋，很不爽。
為甚麼我就不能擁有那份愛？
那份關心在我的身上？
我每次都跟我自己說，
沒關係，都已經習慣了
讓自己不要去想這些無聊的事情
我心里真的一點都不開心 ！
已經很累，很累，面對你假假的笑
當作沒有一回事
我有好多的話，和怨話
賣在心裡不想說出來
我每次都跟自己說，
有一天你一定會對我像你對他那麼的好
愛我多一些
就那麼一點點的愛就已經滿足了。
不想渴望那麼多的愛。
你只看表面，不真真的關心我到底在想些甚麼
表面上的我看起來一點都不在乎，可是我一點都很在意
你只會在他的後面投訴我，
為甚麼就不能當面跟我講呢？
為甚麼你每次都要在我的背後做小動作
你不覺得很無聊的嘛？
表面上你對我好想很好，沒意見，
可是當我不在的時候，你就會慢慢的說我的壞話
沒有一次是好聽的，沒有一句是稱讚我的話
每一次都是很難聽的話
而且還要在我的背後說！
當我知道，我的心真的很痛
為甚麼要這樣？
難道根本好聽的話都沒有嘛？
難道好好聊天都沒有嘛？
有時候感覺上，真的沒有話題可以聊
因為我不知道要怎樣開口，
每一次我要跟你說話，我都好矛盾
都有害怕的感覺
怕我說錯話，我真的很害怕
看到你對他那麼的好，
我很吃醋，很不爽。
為甚麼我就不能擁有那份愛？
那份關心在我的身上？
我每次都跟我自己說，
沒關係，都已經習慣了
讓自己不要去想這些無聊的事情
我心里真的一點都不開心 ！
已經很累，很累，面對你假假的笑
當作沒有一回事
我有好多的話，和怨話
賣在心裡不想說出來
我每次都跟自己說，
有一天你一定會對我像你對他那麼的好
愛我多一些
就那麼一點點的愛就已經滿足了。
不想渴望那麼多的愛。
Monday, August 16, 2010
Unreliable
Im suit to be alone and single.
My heart is not stable and strong enough anymore.
My heart cannot make any strong decision and decide what she should do next.
When the moment he appear,
She will start flashing back the past.
Stubborn her really stubborn.
Does not want to give up.
When she know he had fight with his Girlfriend,
She still can pretend nothing happen at all,
and try to help him out to comfort his gf &
supporting him.
She know this is the stupid way,
but She know what she is doing.
Sometimes other ppl doesn't understand why is she doing this,
and been past a year, why is she still so stubborn on loving him so much.
So much so much...
She has no choice loving him so much,
maybe this is fate.
She hasn't find any true love on other people yet.
Maybe this will take a long time to recover her wound in her heart.
She will try her best.
So she need support on everyone else.
When she is a hyper mood or uncontrolled situation,
She is laughing all the way through and
Her mood was up and down all the time.
Out of blue,
She can just cry infront of her friends,
But she did not.
The tears almost fall off,
But luckily it didnt.
When she is alone,
She really cannot control herself.
And she decided to say the three words to him.
She called him and keep laughing.
He was worried.
Keep asking what happen to me.
She told him everything out,
what is she thinking.
She finally did told him the three words.
She did not regret. But ...
He said...
We will never ever be together anymore.
I love my current gf now.
When the moment, she heard this sentence,
Her tears just falling off.
And smiling texting him:
Im sorry. Take good care.
The story just ended like this.
Whenever he fight with his gf or break up with her,
he will come look for me.
And i will give him support not to give up.
Why am i doing this? Wo bu zhi dao !
Ta hen sha bah....
Can he dont sms her and talking about your gf ma?
Her heart is not strong , but she need to pretend
And support you.
But the other hand, she need ppl to support her.
She want to quit from her job.
Stop supporting him .
She will get more hurt.
She is just a simple girl living in an unreliable condition.
She is not the superwoman ...
Please remember this !
My heart is not stable and strong enough anymore.
My heart cannot make any strong decision and decide what she should do next.
When the moment he appear,
She will start flashing back the past.
Stubborn her really stubborn.
Does not want to give up.
When she know he had fight with his Girlfriend,
She still can pretend nothing happen at all,
and try to help him out to comfort his gf &
supporting him.
She know this is the stupid way,
but She know what she is doing.
Sometimes other ppl doesn't understand why is she doing this,
and been past a year, why is she still so stubborn on loving him so much.
So much so much...
She has no choice loving him so much,
maybe this is fate.
She hasn't find any true love on other people yet.
Maybe this will take a long time to recover her wound in her heart.
She will try her best.
So she need support on everyone else.
When she is a hyper mood or uncontrolled situation,
She is laughing all the way through and
Her mood was up and down all the time.
Out of blue,
She can just cry infront of her friends,
But she did not.
The tears almost fall off,
But luckily it didnt.
When she is alone,
She really cannot control herself.
And she decided to say the three words to him.
She called him and keep laughing.
He was worried.
Keep asking what happen to me.
She told him everything out,
what is she thinking.
She finally did told him the three words.
She did not regret. But ...
He said...
We will never ever be together anymore.
I love my current gf now.
When the moment, she heard this sentence,
Her tears just falling off.
And smiling texting him:
Im sorry. Take good care.
The story just ended like this.
Whenever he fight with his gf or break up with her,
he will come look for me.
And i will give him support not to give up.
Why am i doing this? Wo bu zhi dao !
Ta hen sha bah....
Can he dont sms her and talking about your gf ma?
Her heart is not strong , but she need to pretend
And support you.
But the other hand, she need ppl to support her.
She want to quit from her job.
Stop supporting him .
She will get more hurt.
She is just a simple girl living in an unreliable condition.
She is not the superwoman ...
Please remember this !
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Jesslyn sweet 17th :)
Jesslyn, Eling :D
Jesslyn Belated birthday !
Sorry late post your birthday ar !!!
Heart you A lot ar :)
So this year,
Also the first year help My JESSLYN Celebrate her small little birthday !
hehehe...
On Saturday night,
Went to italian restaurant at Pavilion.
Chill inside there.
And give her a surprise birthday cake..
Hahahah...
Heart her much <3
The surprise finally make her happy the whole night,
And We feel glad and happy that you smile back yar :D
love you much much !
Quik :)
Hope you enjoy ur 17th year ar !!!
:))
Amilk 17th :)
Now Im going to post about Amilk Birthday ar :)
This is the first year i help her celebrate.
Very special ar.
So ...
How i met this little girl :)
I met her this year only.
Can say is during my bday celebration.
She came to my bday and I didnt knw her actually !
My friend introduce her to me.
So that day we only met once but didnt talk with each other :)
FUNNY US LOLS
Then from that day onwards, we chatted in facebook.
but seldom talk, cause dont really knw each other.
So....
Until last saturday,
She actually invited me out to celebrate her birthday !!
What a Surprise right ! hahaha
So I went hang out with her on saturday with her lovely friends
And my friends too :)
Eling tang <3
Heart her a lot !
Kenny wee :)
Jamey <3
<3 her smile
Li huey <3
The bright smile guy, Jun Lim :D
Ah quik <3
The whole gang :D
Celebrated at wong kok,
And bought one cake for her.
Surprise her ar !!! :D
Wheee
Jamey,Eling,Amilk,Elicia,Me :)
Jevin, Eling,Jamey, Amilk, Elicia,Me, Daniel :)
Forever 17th !!!
Hope you like it !
And we bought you a small little present
Which is a cow.
Amilk mah. hahahaha
Our face. XD
Anyway,
Hope you enjoy ur 17th yar !
Must keep in touch ar !!!
Love Her much :)
Love this pic much much <3
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