cheerleading

i have cheerleading trial outs today right after my school hours.

well, i didnt went for the trial outs on last thursday and i miss out the dance steps.
and i just learn the dance steps today and it makes me quite confusing...

however there's a lot of form 2's and form 3's which they know how to do funky stuff such as cartwheel,split,walk over,bridge and more !
but i only know how to do split..
that's embarassing..

but i had joined cheerleading for 2 years
since i was form 2 i told them i cant do even 1 funky stuff at all but i was selected !
miracle !

and i dont know what happen to my voice today?
its like not loud enough to shout for cheers...
i'm so dead right now !

i did badly for today trial outs lar
the captain told us that some of the ex cheerlealeader will be eliminate...

they will announce the result on this coming thursday or friday..
desire that i will get in...




but i'm confuse lar..
i really feel depressed and pissed off right now...
im not satisfied what i have done today !

feeling sad right now ><