Just get rid of me

When you know he is not around your area anymore.
Or part of your life anymore.

You'll begin to feel isolated and wanting to be alone .
Your feeling begin to fade away from day by day.

He will not be there for you to support or count on him anymore.
He will vanish & disappear from your world,
Or maybe He belongs to other person.

How hard you're trying to show him your love,
He wont be bother to know ,
Why should he bother?
He think you're too desperate,
& He think you're Stupid !

But i know you're not stupid.
Cause you cant get used the life without him anymore.
You get used to call him the name you called everyday,
You get used to miss him every second and take care of him,
You get used to call him everyday and asking about his life,
You get used to his love and caring to you.

A lot of stuff you'll get used too.
But at the end,
When you're dumped by him, or even you dump him or what so ever,
You just cant get used without him and accept the fact.

This is what you'll get when you're in relationship and
when you're alone all the time.

Until so many months away,
I'm still deep in love with him.
Why? Dont ask me why.
I can't answer your question...

I still imagine that he is still with me all the time.
I still imagine he actually still exist in my world.
I still imagine he is around somewhere looking for me,

I always imagine he is around me when i'm in the mall,
or maybe i have the chance to see his face,
I am so desperate seeing him .

I still have the imagination,
he will waiting outside school and waiting for me to finish my class.
Or he will just stand outside & see what am i doing.

Am i nuts?
Or am i too stupid or innocent? or maybe

I really couldn't accept the fact that he really really really not belong to me anymore.
He belongs to other person .

Or maybe

I couldn't get used what i have now.

I am trying so hard to give up on you.
There are one time that i thought i really give up on you,

But in the sake that,
You come and look for me and talk to me.

Or there are still some other people talking about your life and stuff.
& this really make me even more miss you
& wanted to talk to you & ask about you.
But i can't . I really can't .

Can I just stop imagining you again.
My whole mind is your images .
I wanted the images to be clear off ,
and burn it .

I thought i broke the connection between you & me,
But i don't know why.
God still wanted me to have a connection between you & me.

Is like they don't want me to forget about you,
& don't talk to you anymore.

Sometimes,
I still think about you.
But when i'm really busy that time,
I wouldn't think about you...

Maybe I should make myself busy and not to think of you !

God,
Can you just take me away from him.
I want to live a normal life
I want to get rid of him.

Can someone please just let him to stay away from me.
& not to have any connection to me anymore.

I want this person to disappear from my sight.
My view even my imagination !
I want him to totally disappear.

I don't care you guys use magical or some kind of stuff.
I Just want him to D.I.S.A.P.P.E.A.R

Maybe I should get into another relationship,
& only that time I really can forget about you
And leave you away !

I REALLY NEED TO ACCEPT THE FACT THAT


YOU'RE NO LONGER BELONG TO ME ANYMORE.